hey..surprised tt i blogged at this time?..well..skipped sch todae..not tt i planned to..woke up early todae..could have been on time..but somehow or rather mi took mi time to do mi things..then was late for sch..well..realised tt it is RFA n the tutor keep having mood swings so decided to go at 1 for FIT lecture..but well slept to ard 1230..dun feel like taking MRT coz have been taking it these few days..so here i am..at home..dunno wat to do..wun b going for mi TAX2 tutorial..too lazy to go..anyway i'm did not prepare mi tutorial as usual..time seems to fly..this week is the last lecture for all modules..haiz..next upcoming weeks will all b revision lectures..then come the exams..so tired..i so tired of sch..but well..hafta endure for another 1 mth..yes..1 mth..then will b holidays..at the same time muz start trging for airborne...i muz make the cut for it..i muz not fail...i dunno y..but i feel so lost..so lonely now..i feel so alone in this place...i miss being wif mi frens..miss the laughter n joy..missed being in luv..having someone there to care for u..having someone there for u when u r down..n miss the feeling of seeing tt someone feeling happy when she's wif u..feel so lonely..i dunno y..mayb i juz too free..think should concentrate on mi sch work...muz not fail any modules..coz i cannot afford to..i muz b strong..notihng shall stand in my way..i can achive wat i wan..yes i can..n i will...

went to sch todae..n as usual did not do mi tutorial..haha..dunno how sia..been skipping lecture n not reading up on mi own plus not doing tutorial somemore..haiz..so juz went t both tutorial sit down n keep nodding mi head..look as if i noe wat the tutor is toking bout..but actually not register in mi head..juz nod so tt they wun noe i nv do mi tutorial..haha..gotta start studying liaoz..lagging too far behind...then after class went for lunch..then went to level 6 com lab to do our project..then went for mi driving lesson..finally could book mi driving test liaoz..haha..but mi instructor wan to book for mi..haiz..dunno which date he getting..sianz..thought can go for the tp test on the 15..but seems tt it will b dragged to 2oth+..sianz..hafta waste more $ for more lessons...then after tt went jp to bet on soccer..hope to win this time..been losing the last few bets..hmm...dunno wat's wrong wif mi mum..seems to b in veri bad mood...keep naggning n nagging..can't stand it anymore...haiz...how i wish i can get out of here...

yoyoyo...haven been updating..semester ending soon so veri bz wif the projects..here's a update on wat happened

Tue
went sch early in the morning at 9am..forgetting tt there is no FIT tutorial coz this week is e-learning week..luckily meet liching n shirley there coz they went early to meet the FIT tutor for consultation on previous..but well..she nv turned up..so went for breakfast at KAP..then went back for MA1 tutorial...after tt went driving...n went home after driving..

Wed
went sch for RFA tutorial onli coz there is no FIT lecture n Tax tutorial was cancelled..then went to westmall to slack for 3 hrs b4 going to driving..was so bored at westmall coz dunno wat to do...then meet jieying n shiying who were there to catch a movie..then after driving..

Thur
Went sch for BLAW n RFA lecture..well..the BLAW lecture was quite interesting..but the RFA lecture is damm boring..fell asleep after 15mins till the lecture ended..then dunno where to go so went home...

Fri
Went for Camp FEAST on friday..plan to go HQ leave mi thing first then go sch for project presentation..so meet angie n hs at ard 11..but found out tt presentation is on the 2 April so skipped the tutorial n stayed in HQ..found out tt i was the OIC of the camp..sianz..the cadets came streaming in..well wat to do..this is ncc..the sch haf all sorts of excuses..so maz had a hard to doing the nonimal rolls..poor gal..then settled the cadet bunks n logistic stuff then we called it a day..

Sat
worked up early in the morning on sat..found out tt the cadets had already fall in at 5.30..wth..all dumb..fall in so early..haiz..then everything went according to planned..then handed over to zz coz i had to go for SYFOC GOH trg..well..really vomit blood..the cadets drill sux big time..they juz dun realise how fortunate they are tt they don't hafta fight for places in the GOH like air cadets used to do...their drill are really not up to standard..after the trg went for dinner in the car dar rented..went to novena first coz farhan meeting his gal there then returned to AMK..bought our dinner n went back to HQ..got to drive dar's car from the long road leading to HQ..felt so shoik..haha..then let zz run the camp coz i was too tired..well..thing was behind sechdule..cadets slept veri late..well mayb is coz of the campfire..

Sun
didn't wake up for pt todae..was too tired to go for pt..then went for breakfast..the the hectic day started..had to ensure tt the place is clean n everything is in order b4 we dismiss the cadets..managed to sent them home by 10plus...then had to settle some stuff b4 we got to go at 11..dar n ian came to fetch us in the car..sent hs n maz home b4 driving mi home to change then went to indoor stadium..drop ian there coz he had to go for the affirmation rehearsal..then went to merlion there..had our mac lunch there..chill out for a while b4 going back to kallang where i got to play wif the car..haha..so fun..after tt went to the stadium cove b4 picking ian up to go changi to c palne..got to drive again at changi..thanks to dar..haha..then went night safari..broke mi specs there bcoz of the stupid bats..haha..haiz..but nvm..at least gave mi a reason to get a new pair..mayb i should get contacts..hmm...then after tt dar drove mi home first..then sent others home..wanted to watch the man u match but well..was to tired to..fell asleep wif the tv on..got woke up middle of the night n scolded by mi mum..haiz..

Todae
found out there is PQS test onli last nite..haiz..so went the PQS test unprepared..it was difficult coz i knew nothing..haha..then had to rush to tabulate the survey result for TV project n went for the project consultation b4 going for driving..had two driving lesson todae..well quite fun but veri tired also coz did not haf enough rest this weekend..hmm..gtg liaoz..still got lots of repots n thing to do..sianz..shagged...haha

yo...have been veri bz lately..took cab to sch todae for a consultation session wif one of mi tutor..wth..paid $8plus to go sch for 15mins then can go liaoz..waste mi $..but nvm la..who ask mi to leave mi so late..haiz..muz leave earlier next time..then after tt went driving..was damm tired todae..keep forgetting to change to gear 1 after mi stopped..haiz..so sian..lack of sleep and so uncomfortable coz the effect of the sunburn is acting in liaoz..yesterday went to sentosa to celebrate ian's bday..went early in the morning at 9 to siloso beach to kayak, swim, play frisbee, soccer..well, really had a fun filled day..had not enjoyed miself so much for a long long time liaoz..then went off for dinner at sentosa BK for at round 6+ 7 i think..was sunburnt n damm tired coz slept at 0330 on sat coz played majong wif mi bro, mi cousin n mi bro fren..haha..lost 27 bucks..haiz..was so damm unlucky..could not win even wif a gd hand..haha..then after tt went AMK S11 for some drink..chat till round 11 the went home..tt y todae so tired..
fri went sch n got mi biz law paper back..was so surprised i got 80/100..haha..wth..mayb study last min also got its pros..haha..then also slept through the two lectures..after sch rushed down to HQ NCC for the 103km run..well..it didn't turn out as well as i thought..had to run 2 time coz we did not haf enough ppl..the beginning of the race was really boring..the traffic police personnel made us run together saying there was no competition n they had a hard time controlling traffic..so the road had a long convoy of ncc vehicles..bout 11 mini vans 1 rover 2 ambulance and 10 TP bike..haha..wat a sight tt was..waited at a bustop somewhere close to nee soon camp for 3hrs frm 0330 to bout 0630 on sat morning for mi second round of run..haiz..was so damm cold n bored..n by then somehow or rather they changed their mind n decided tt the competition is on again n i was the last runner to leave the checkpoint..haiz..was so far behind..then at the end..air came in 4th..well..personally to mi it was a disappointment..but well..nvm..there is always chance to prove our worth again..hope tt air will regin supereme soon..haha..well then after the run when ended of sat, mi too cab home wif dar n slept till ard 1900hrs..haha..after tt played majong till 0330..it was really a bz weekend for mi..haha..

hmm...todae is another boring day..was late for sch n the tutor was also angry coz none of us did the tutorial on a laptop to present..haiz..then sit down n listen to her nag n nag nag..then we managed to get the tutorial done on a laptop as she nag..so u can imagine how long she nagged..after tt we got back our RFA test paper...haiz..scored veri veri badly..though i did not put effort for it..but it is still disappointing..but at least i passed..hafta study hard for exam liaoz..cannot fail any module..i'm on bond..muz work hard work hard...then had our lunch n skipped FIT lecture coz tax tutorial was postphoned to tomolo..n also coz we wanted to play ping pong..haha..yeah ping pong aka table tennis..dunno y so into it nowadays..used to play pool n now is table tennis..play till 5.30 or 6 like tt i think..n i think i caused mi left foot injury to become worsed after injuring it when i ran frm bukit panjang to mi house wif mi cousin on mon..it was so fun to run wif someone whom u haf a common topic wif..chatted bout ncc n stuff n realised tt he has the same mentality bout leadership wif mi..so finally found someone who defined leadership then same way n feel the same way bout ncc as mi...haha..so happy coz always thought there is something wrong wif mi but now realised tt time has changed n cadets n clts are not wat they used to b..clts nowadays are juz different..different frm our time..so are the cadets..haiz..anyway hope tt mi injury will recover in time..dunno y i keep getting injuried..am i getting old?..haha..lame qns..haiz..mi now so damm broke..no $ to spend..hope army transfer mi $ soon..or ncc transfer mi allowance soon..so i can spend!!!...i need $...i feel so broke...haiz..bank left total less than 15bucks..haiz..seems like signing the bond onli made mi a spendthrift...haiz..muz manage mi $..muz manage it properly!!!

todae got back my FIT common test paper..didn't do veri well but compared to the effort i put in..i think it's not bad liaoz..haha..could haf got gd marks if i had studied juz a tiny bit more..haha..but nvm la..then MA tutorial was boring..coz i skipped the lecture last week n so dun really understand..but the tutor thinks tt i can do manage so nv say anything lor..after sch went driving..kenna trick by mi instructor coz i nv listen to his advice when driving along this curvy rd at little guilin..wth..i drove at 50km/h n suddenly he wanted mi to turn left..wth..mi thought mi was in 3th gear n who noe to mi horror i was in the 4th n i realised tt after i clutch in..n wasn't able to control the car properly so the instructor had to brake n steer for mi..haiz..then kenna scolded like siao lor..wth..so fed up when driving wif him..dunno y whenever he beside mi then mi cannot drive properly..haiz..then after tt went orchard to shop for ian's present..waited for angie n hs n one unity cadet for 1 hrs..wth..thought they would onli take like 20 to 30 mins but in the end waited for like 1hr+..haiz..then had dinner at taka then walk walk n bought a present..after tt sent hs home..haiz..poor gal..dunno how to console ppl also..mi so useless.then after tt took cab home..n found out tt there is no dinner left for mi..wth..ask mi eat maggie mee..so damm hungry..coz mi say dun wan maggie..haiz..so sian n so hungry..lazy to go coffeshop buy n no $ liaoz..so sad..

haf not been updating lately coz been quite bz xcept for todae..slept the whole day xcept when i went to jp to haf lunch wif joy n angie..otherwise i think i slept throughout the day..then yesterday went for ncc the whole day..went swiss n found out tt nobody plan the trg for the sec 1..wth..then i'm supposed to come up wif something..then really dunno wat to do wif them..haven been able to go trg for 3 weeks n they wan to to come up wif sometihng for sec 1..haiz..wth..luckily angie was there to tok cock wif them..then taught them some footdrills n drilled the sec 3 to select for SYFOC coz apparently there was some conflict..well..then dismissed the sec1s at ard 12 coz have nothing for them..then who noes the USM called one of the sec 4 then he qns mi..the word here is questioned mi..wth..wat on earth is happening?..seems tt apparently there is no higher authority in swiss..then USM is stepping over the fine line..haiz..sad to see the unit this way..but well..hope tt the sec 3 will b a better batch..at least they are showing a bit of atandard now..but hope it is not an act to get gd posts..*cross fingers*...
then fri skipped sch coz did mi blaw project till ard 5 in the morning..wth..but went to sch anyway to finished up the blaw project..then after tt went orchard to do the PQS mystery shopper project..went for lunch at this feather n fins restaurant which is inside a food court..haha..funni sia..mi thought it was a classy restaurant..but turn out not to b..then went to ps reds for a haircut..haha..seems like i'm purposely trying to spend all my $ sia..spend almost 100 this week..haiz..hafta find some way to stop miself frm spending so much...
on thur tried to do mi blaw project but was unable to do much coz agreed to watch movie wif ys..had to take cab down to ps..then watch runaway jury..haha..thought we went into the wrong theater..coz the advertisment was so long..about 20mins sia..wth..waste time...then after went home straight coz the blaw project due the next day..n we juz started doing on thurs..think its the fastest project i ever done..haha
nothing much happen on wed coz i forgot i i did liaoz..haha..but tues mi went driving..it was so fun..the instructor was not mi usual one..then he didn't nag at all..so gd..haha..went completed two test routes n went for the simulator trg..there was this cute chick..haha..but well..its for the eyes onli..think she is so rich man daughter..coz she wear till quite nice..then after the lesson she took cab..haiz..seems like i gonna remain single for a lon long time..
well..time seems to pass so fast n tomolo will b mon again..haiz..exam gonna b round the corner veri soon sia..haiz..

todae..been raining the whole day..wth..sch was alrite..quite interesting..lesson end at 12 then went sports complex to do project wif jenn they all..nv actually do anything juz choose the article for the blaw project..then tok cock till 2 like tt..haiz..should not haf listen to them crapping..mi was late for mi driving..haiz..took cab frm bukit batok mrt..waste mi $...next time should leave sch by 1350 like tt sia..if not waste $ take cab..hafta cut down on mi expenditure..been spending alot lately..haha..yesterday had swensen for dinner at orchard wif dar n des, then b4 tt was at suntec career fair..haha..juz went for the fun of it..mi have a career ahead liaoz wat..then had korean food at suntec food court..keep eating nowadays n nv exercise coz of test..really stressed mi out sia..todae cannot run also coz of rain..haiz..then driving todae was alrite..xcept for the fact tt i was driving a circuit car..tt means cannot go on road..haiz..but lucky also la..raining sia..nv drive in rain b4..so todae get xperience in curcuit..heez..looking forward to driving tomolo coz got simulator lesson also..yeah...

been thinking of mi sec 1 cadets lately..dunno how they haf been doing sia..haf not been going for sch trg..coz of pocket $ fund, swim trial n test..wth..seems like i'm not fated to go sch trg sia..haha..muz make sure nothing on on sat this week..if not ppl will start spreading rumour tt i nv go sch trg again..wth..life like tt..ppl will do all sorts of thing to get wat they wan..at the expense of others too..so nvm..wat come round go round too..i noe wat i haf done..n nothing is gonna bring mi down..juz like wat happen during mi project work..i'm not gonna care if ppl say i nv do anything..coz i noe wat i haf done..

YES!!!! test finally over..haha..but went for tax test todae unprepared...lucky managed to anyhow do..still can write some crap..then went down to ZSS wif angie coz saw the time wrongly..thought is 1045 when it is actually 0945..haiz..so blur these days...haha..then thought cannot make it in time to go Swiss so went ZSS..went there do nothing xcept shoot air rifle..well..it not as easy as i thought..it is heavy n not easy to take aim as the rifle will b moving about..haha..mayb mi not strong enough...then went AMK for lunch n took cab down to AMQ camp wif dar farhan n angie for SYFOC GOH trg...wth..some of the cadets dunno their arms drill sia, esp ACS(I)..really noe nuts sia..but feel glad tt at least they learn something todae..n glad to noe tt mi drill not rusted..haha...hmm...so damm tiring todae..
anyway went for PC n P2IC selection yesterday..haha..serve mi rite for not begin choosen..went there so slack..but nvm la..haha..doubt i will get it even if i got selected yesterday.....nv prepare for tax todae coz went for the selection..but well..at least it help mi destressed..ncc is so juz wonderful...it destresses mi...haha..seems like i'm toking crap here..haha..but nvm la...i destressing...this is the channel for destressing..haha

omg...i so fucking stressed out by my last two paper...nothing is registering in my brain...trying so hard to get info in..think i'm burnt out by the biz law test this afternoon...so far the test has been easy..think can score gd marks if i dun write out of point...but the last two coming test is really stressful...serve mi rite..nv do any tutorial or listen to lecture..i'm so fucking stressed...pls pls pls help mi...mi fucking bro is coming up wif dumb idea of fixing a new com..n now mi mum's fren is here toking bout the parts they wan..so fucking stressed n they are toking bout computer..n dumb bro dun even noe wat the fuck he wan..mayb he dun even noe wat he is toking..think is gonna waste $ again..fuck care for now..dun gif a damm..nv even bother to discuss wif mi first...anyway haf no time so such thing..the tests are stressing mi out...i juz cannot load any info into my brain..STRESSED!!!!

yoyo..todae had mi first paper..haha..it was not as difficult as i thought..hmm..mayb can get 75-80%..haha..lucky nv work too hard..if not i'll kill miself sia...work so hard then find the paper wif all the ans hidden inside..the lecturer muz b trying to help us sia..then after tt went driving..well not so bad..but the instructor still say not gd..haiz..tomolo got FIT paper..jialat..hope tt it will not b difficult..hafta start studying soon...
well...yesterday..didn't doing anything much..juz sleep till afternoon then went YCK to meet princess to go MOE..then reach there the office close liaoz..so unlucky sia..waste time go..then went JP wif princess had KFC then went NTUC to shop for tibits..haiz..seems like i really veri bad to mi mum...muz face wall think wrong liaoz..haha...wth..if u dun understand then nvm..it's a chinese idiom...