wow..time really flies..it's thur now..n it the start of my exams..sianz..haha..haven really been studying..juz finish studying for todae paper..well onli studied wat i think is important..hope i spot the topics correctly..haha..hmm..tomolo is blaw..n noe wat..it will b the 3rd tt i'm gonna do a case study qns..haha..1st was the common test, 2nd was the project..so tomolo will b the 3rd..hope it will b as well done as the common test..haha..really worried tt i might fail..though the chances are not tt high, but muz also b prepared for the worst..haha..todae is also princess last day at work..tomolo rp is starting sch..hope she dun cry too much if not tomolo go sch not pretty..haha..gtg prepare for sch liaoz..dun wanna b late for exams..bye..wish mi luck k?..

i dunno y but i juz feel so lonely..so helpless in this small world of mime..mayb i need to get out of the house..go get some fresh air..been staying at home since last nite..i feel so lonely..so tired..can someone out there help mi???

yo..i'm back..haha..n yup..i got my licence..haha..but these few days wasn't really tt great for mi..haven not been lucky this few days though i passed mi TP..rent a 'car' right after my TP n it gave mi a veri bad driving experience..well..the 'car' looks ok on the outside but the frm the inside..it looks as if it was taken out of the scrapeyard n fitted wif an engine..think it will b the worst driving experience i'll ever haf..so warning to all those out there..nv rent car frm a lady call lisa living in bishan..at least dun pay her until u c the 'cars'..haha..so at least u wun get to experience wat i experienced..haha..really really bad experience..then took the 'car' round singapore..from the most eastern n to the most western end..
then fri went to rp wif dar n hs..well..almost got lost but managed to find rp in the end..so hs bought her lappy n then sent her to work..after which mi n dar returned the 'car'..well at least the 'car' nv gave us any surprises on fri..haha..then mi n dar went holland avenue..another 'car rental co'...well the cars are alot better n the rate is alot cheaper..but after being conned once..well..didn't haf much $ left..so went home disappointed wif no car to drive..haiz
sat went hq ncc..well took train to admiralty then changed to cab..coz was running late..then ;isten to rsm tok bout spotting drills mistake..well think it is wat clts should already noe..or should i say udi should noe also..but anyway it was quite enriching too..learnt something..then after the session wif rsm went to afs to collect our no.1 only to find out tt there is no size for us, mi n dar, so onli collected the accessories n went to toa payoh to haf lunch wif maz..then went hdb hub to c the patch work..haha..didn't noe y we went there also..mayb coz dunno wat to do..after which we went home..firstly coz can't decide where to go, secondly felt veri tired n sleepy..
sun slack at home the whole day..godma came over to take some photo in order to finish the film b4 taking it for developing..then went to play majong..worst majong game ever had..lost almost all my chips..to b exact, 49.20 out of 50 bucks worth of chips..haha..really unlucky these few days..spent like 300+ 400 these 4 days..haiz..busted mi budget till june liaoz..shit..
todae..alacked at home the whole day..sleep n watch tv..exam in 2 days n i'm still slacking ard..haiz..didn't had lunch..well didn't had lunch for the past week also on days when i stayed at home the whole day..too lazy to cook instant noodles..well they dun taste great..and also too lazy to go out..haha..

been feeling abit confused..dunno y..but hope tt every thing well turn out well in the end...

yo..been slacking at home for the past few day xcept for monday..went driving n swimming on monday..well..driving was not bad except for some dumb error other think should b alrote la..tt y cancel tue driving lesson..haha..tomolo is mi TP le..really hope nothing will go wrong..muz get mi licence..haha..wish mi luck k?..haha..then tue n todae slack at home..didn't even bother to go out to buy lunch..haha..supposed to study..but as always things goes by left when it comes to my studies...hmm..hafta start mi revision soon...though the probability of failing is not tt high..but..always prepare for the worst =P
this few days have really been great..really in gd mood..coz of...haha..not telling ur..ur will noe when the times comes..heez..tt all for now...

hi ppl...haha..finally i'm home..went to indoor stadium todae to help out in ushering as well as get my award..haha..time seems to past so fast..still remember fews years ago when i was a MSG n ushering the cadet n look at my peers get the outstanding cadet award..n in a blink of an eye..here i m getting my outstanding clt award..haha..well i may not b tt outstanding but i'm some wat lucky to get the award =P..haha..so happy todae coz i has been so since i felt so nervous bout getting award coz this time round there was no rehearsal and well i wasto bz wif the ushering to go for a rehearsal if there's one..then mi princess was there..haha..dumb gal..tried to fake mi tt she will not b there but well as my instinct tell mi..she turned up anyway...todae is one of the best day i ever had..mi mum nv nag at mi n mi princess was at the ceremony..heez...managed to take a photo wif her :D..then mi mum was like thinking if she's my gal..haha..well well well..tt for mi to noe n for her to find out..then at the post ceremony..met mi NP Dy Principal..haha..didn't noe who he was until i look at his tag after i shaked his hand...haha..then went into the reception with all the big shots..feel so uncomfortable..after tt took some photos then went to meet dar they all..went bugis after tt n had our dinner n sent mi princess home and here i am..smelly n all in front of mi laptop..haha..
well past few days have been pretty boring..went to lot 1 sakae sushi for lunch after class on wed wif cin, jenn n choo...then thur wanted to go afs to draw no.5t but wasn't ready yet so slack at home n went sch in the afternoon n fri was really boring went to afs early at 10 plus i think then got to sch too early so slack in library and went for blaw class at 3 then rush down s'pore turf club to work as a waiter..well..it was quite a eye opener for mi..then sat slacked at home..wanted to go out but was too late after mi got mi things done..then well todae was the most happening day of the week..n btw it's holiday now..4 days to my TP and bout 1 week to mi exam..hmm..wish mi luck k?..nitez ppl..sweet dreamz..take care

yoyo...todae went to watch passion of christ..well..it is a gruesome show..veri violent sia..lot of blood n nots..went to marina square to watch it after class todae..well..skip the first tutorial todae then went for the second one which i dun understand a single shit..haiz..hafta study liaoz..exam in 2 weeks..after the movie met up wif ys..well..didn't plan to..but was walking alone n suddenly felt like calling her..well then went to a turf club outlet to bet on soccer..well betted 100+ bucks todae..wanna recover wat i lost last nite..but mi gambling luck has been down recently..yes..mi gambling habit is back..well not as bad as it used to b..but now using money from the bond really made mi feel the pinch..haha..lost ard 300 up to date..thought of a dumb plan to get it all back n stop gambling..well..it is workable but hafta c if i'm lucky enough to make it work asap..coz the longer i drag or use tt method, the more funds i'll need..
I dunno y..but i feel so empty..been veri bad to mi mum recently..well quarrelled wif her, tok in a veri bad manner...haiz..i dunno y..i juz can't seem to b nice to her..i juz feel so fed up the moment i hear a voice..i dunno wat's wrong..i feel so bad..i need to change..but i dunno how to...i feel funny when i nice to mi framily members..strange but true..i feel guilty being rude towards mi mum..i noe it hurts her badly..but i really dunno how to control myself...i juz feel so stress to her voice..can someone pls help mi?..i'm gonna break down soon...i feel so lonely..so empty..feel so bad for being rude to ppl who care bout mi..wat's wrong wif mi?..('_")???

this two days have been veri boring..nothing much happened..except for this afternoon have rush down to a tailor shop at city hall there to tailor mi no.5t shirt n rush to sch..tt singham called mi at 1+ to tell mi tt i hafta have it tailored by todae..so no choice hafta rush down..haiz..then monday hafta go down afs juz to draw a tie..he is so inflexable...its onli a tie man..y would i wanna take it n not return?...haiz..then this whole weekend burnt..coz hafta go for some dunno wat ritual..dumb sia...hate this type of thing..then quarrel wif mi mum over this..so dumb..waste mi 4 precious day where i can do lots of things instead i'm stuck at this temple wasting mi time away..i really hate it..it is so fucked up...weekends burnt like tt..shit!!!

Sch was a total disaster todae..haiz..went to class wifout doing tutorial..but the worst was during the FIT project presentation, we cock up...didn't prepare well...haiz...all mi fault..coz mi was to lazy to stay back n discuss bout the presentation wif them yesterday..then mi this morning also open the unedited powerpoint...then they used it wifout noeing n after the presentation then one of them told mi..haiz..then went for MA tutorial..dunno wat the hell the tutor toking bout..juz keep nodding mi head..so dumb rite...wanna act clever..haiz..then after tt went driving..went bcoz wanna ask mi instructor y he still haven book the tp for mi..but turn out tt he was not the instructor for mi lesson todae..but luckily saw him in the canteen after the lesson..haha..wat a coincidence..then in the end manged to book mi tp liaoz..22 Apr 0825hrs...haha..well hope i can pass it..but i've prepare for the worst...booked additional lesson close to the retest date tt i estimated..hmm...not tt no confidence..but as the murphy laws goes..wat can go wrong will go wrong..so hope it dun apply to mi on during tp..haha..then driving todae was alrite..xcept for vertical parking..dunno y keep hitting the kerb..but lucky nv knock down pole..but both is juz as bad..haiz..then went on road driving round juz to pass time..the instructor also sian sian nv say anything..n mi changing lane sux big time...haiz..hope tp wun cock up during lane change..n mi keep dragging mi gear 1..haha..jialat..still got so many things to improve..hmm..muz pass one time pass tp..muz b as gd as mi bro..if not later mi mum will doubt mi driving skills...haha..hmm...feel like studying todae..later muz study..mum nagging liaoz haiz...bye

went to sch late todae..set the alarm last to wake up atr 5 to finish up the presentation..but in the end continue sleeping like a log till 7+..haha..class at 8 todae sia..s bo bian...could not finish the ppt presentation n went to sch..was late for like half an hour i think..then the tutor was abit unhappy..who cares..not happy his problam la..not as if i wanna late one wat..then wif the ppt not finish, was worried bout wat excuse to give..haha..was abit evil la..corrupt a file in the diskette to cover up the fact we didn't finish the project..but lucky got other team even worse..think they nv finish so some of the team members nv turn up...so when the tutor ask wat to do wif them..mi said present next week..haha..so also helped ourselves la..coz we also nv finish wat..then our turn to present we told the tutor got problem wif our file so we wanna present next week also..haha...lucky us...then went to canteen 1 to try finish up the TV project..after tt went to meet the TV tutor..took bout 15 mins then can go home liaoz..so happy..ard 12 can go home then todae no driving somemore..coz now waiting for tp then lazy to go so often..haha..so went jp to walk walk till 1+..wanna go cut hair but lazy to go..think next week or wat then go lor..haha..then came home n sleep till juz now..so here i m...updating my blog..oh ya...yesterday went to town..went istana watch the change of guards..wow..it was so powerful..esp the PDS by the MP...so impressed guards drill also veri power..how i wish mi GOH ppl also like them like tt..solid drills..haha..went to ps, meridian hotel foodcourt, paragon and taka wif maz dar ian n hs..walk walk c c...wanna buy a long sleeve shirt, went G2000 then remembered tt the shirt's cutting dun suit mi..so nv buy...then walk till 9 or 10 plus like tt then took mrt sent hs home..reach home bout 12 i think..then ate mi dinner n tried to do mi ppt..but well..was too tired to..so went slept ard 2 i think..haha..feel happy these days..hmm..things seems to b looking better liaoz..feel so glad...

Yawn...so tired..worked up so early..mi body clocks seems to b out of order..every sunday can sleep late late but always wake mi up ard 8+ 9+ like tt..haiz..so sianz n tired...later hafta pray at home coz todae is qing ming(for those who dunno wat it is, it is a festival whereby we go sweep the tombs of our ancestors and we also hafta pray at home wif offerings)..then going town wif maz, ian n dar later in the evening...haiz..still got two projects powerpoint presentation haven do sia..jialat...one is due tomolo n the other is on tue..dunno how m i gonna get it done...so tired...yesterday went GOH trging at HQ in the afternoon..didn't went sch trging coz haf lecture, but in the end overslept, so nv went sch either..then 11+ set off for HQ, reach ard 12+ thinking i was late coz asked the cadets come early to drill them in their arms drill..coz really not up to GOH standard yet..but then they all came after 1230..so went to 2SIR canteen for lunch wif dar..then after tt the cadets came n attendance was gd..haha..got extra ppl to lend the sea GOH coz they not enough..then they get to try to fire the blanks..hmm..not bad la..at least their drill improve a little bit..but still not gd enough..as dar said, they are better the other GOH contegient but they are not up to the GOH standard yet...then also get to hold the sword todae..hmm..start to hate the sword coz hafta figure out how to do the drill ourselves..not one really taught..then dun feel comfortable wif swords..haha...but gotta learn how carry n do sword drill properly..learning is a never ending process..hope tt next rehearsal will b better..hope they can do their firing of blanks properly..haha..n improve in their arms drill too..then after the GOH trg was surprised to c hs waiting for us alone in the office..poor gal..nv go off wif angie they all first..so went AMK for dinner wif hs n dar then reach ard 12 i think..surprised mi mum nv nag...haha..hmm..gtg liaoz b4 mi mum start nagging at mi..haha..cya

AIRBORNE!!!..yes..it's confirmed..there is airborne course this june..14 june to 3 july...gotta train for it..haha..but it clashed with SYFOC rehearsals n sch term start 28th june,,tt means i will not b able to march in SYFOC n will miss sch for 1 week..tt is if i'm selected n i go for the couse la..haha...i muz try my best to go for it..i muz go for it!!!

time seems to pass so fast..another week gone...three weeks to exam...sch has been veri boring these two days...go lecture sleep n go tutorial do presentation...been missing tax lectures these days..dunno how sia...or should i say i haf been missing alot of lectures these days...n i've been going to sch late this week..have not take 154 to sch this whole week..have been taking mrt then change to bus or taxi..haiz...then keep spending $ like i'm some rich man's son..gotta start saving..seems not to haf enough time..projects due next mon but haven do..jialat sia...hmm...muz sit down n plan out thing properly liaoz..if i wan to make sure i go for airborne n i pass all mi modules..haha..gtg liaoz..prepare uniform for tomolo..cya..