It's been like 31/2 years since i last blogged..
Time really flies..And now I gonna ORD in few months time!!!
Actually the prospect of leaving the org is quite scary to me..
Firstly
I've lost ouch with the private sector(well..I was nv in touch other the the 6 mth internship)
Secondly
I took a gamble (seems like i still like to take risk, i joined the org because i take some stupid risk when i was in poly..and now I'm leaving because i took another risk, but a more calculated one which i believe i can lose without regret) and lost so I die die hafta leave the org..well..seems like a good thing to me..coz it sort of force me to leave as i am still contemplating if leaving is a choice..now, I dun have to think so much..hopefully i will meet the right ppl outside and be sucessful..I will be...I must..

The past years have been eventful..

The most important being..Bear is no longer part of my life..well..she is a nice gal but i think i was too indecisive..we broke off and have not really contact each other since..really hope we can be gd frens..and apologise to her for being so unfair to her..but..i nv have the courage to do so..i really dunno y we broke up..mayb becoz we did not communicate with each other enough towards the end of the relationship and i was too playful and most importantly i allowed myself to be involved in another gal when i'm still with her, which is something i have nv done so before..but if i can, i would really like to tell her that she is a really gd gf and i regret hurting her so deeply..really hope she can find a good guy and live a happy and easy life..

Well..and as you may have guessed..I'm currently with that gal who is someone very special to me even till now..the one whom i like the most during my sec sch days..she is too a very nice gal..although abit stubborn at time but adorable nonetheless..lets hope that this will be my last gf..

After being in the org for 41/2 years..i've changed quite alot..first from being a motivated soldier who expect things to be done the correct way and do my best all the time..
i realised that the world is not as perfect as i expected..i now learn to expect less and appreicate the effort ppl put in..this in turn make my life easier and less miserable..i also learnt alot of thing which may be not correct but it make everybody's life easier..

The org is not a bad org..but its the ppl there who made it screwed up..so for anyone who is considering the option i took...PLS CONSIDER CAREFULLY..if you can tahan the ppl..by all means go ahead..it all depends on who you meet..so far, i meet a few whom i really respect..but these are far and few..most are usually the -ve or useless or uncivilised..i also one of the -ve one i would say..coz like the saying goes..if you can beat them join them...lol..not a very gd choice..but well.....

Anyway..I did this entry because i was quite suprised that this blog is still ard after so many yrs and i feel like talking to someone but really dunno who to talk to..at the same time, i hope to inprove my english coz being the org makes me less intelligent...i believe no one still remember this blog as it been dormant for so long so no harm writing here..i can't finish saying what happen in the past years in one entry so hope i still have the passion the blog after this. This entry is very messy and the english, i believe is quite terrible..hope i can improve after some time..